holy smokes, it's been a while!

I'm trying to get myself in order... and in so doing, thought "yeah, I should see what shape my 'blog is in."

bad idea. or good.

cause the shape it was in is NO SHAPE. I hadn't written or posted anything to it in years.

how embarrassing. I know I've written, and I know I've been writing... and thinking. and doing the whole self-referential thing that 'blogs are good for too. yet, something was preventing me from posting any of it here.

there's that feeling that in pouring your heart out (or even just your thoughts) to a 'blog that could be read by random people is... well, unsettling. that doesn't bother me.

it's the people WHO KNOW ME reading those random thoughts and then not copping to the fact that they've read them... and know them. THAT'S what bugs me.

nothing's weirder than people knowing things about you that you don't know they know.

y'know?

anyway, though I've said it, I'm gonna break myself of it. who the hell is reading this? no one. (hell not even my mom.) but there's value in doing this. and as long as this doesn't become another crazed thing I have to do, I think it'll be just fine.

also, I think for now, I'll be linking my twitter  account here, just to expand a thought or whatever that I might start out over there.

so that's that, good to see ya (to anyone reading).